Sometimes I wonder...
Sometimes I wonder...
...why I have online journals that no one but me reads?
...why I have instant messengers when no one IMs me?
...why I bother writing when no one reads what I write?
...why I bother trying to get published when the book either doesn't show up or doesn't sell?
...why *I* even bother... period?
depressed...why I have online journals that no one but me reads?
...why I have instant messengers when no one IMs me?
...why I bother writing when no one reads what I write?
...why I bother trying to get published when the book either doesn't show up or doesn't sell?
...why *I* even bother... period?
Hugs you!
Re: Hugs you!
Thanks, hon. I appreciate the comment. *hugs* ♥
I love to get comments, I love to get reviews, attention and recognition. Who doesn't? The problem is, especially with Internet, contacts are fleeting and much more superficial than real life, unless you know people better - and even that doesn't say everything. I have a few people on my flist that I've known for more than three years, so you'd think there was a special bond, a friendship..but one has totally diverted to a OMG LOLOLOL moron, and the other has severed every e-mail contact with me (and others, apparently), which in both cases left me with a "WTF?" expression on my face.
I don't want to be too negative. I like, I want to see the positive side of life/people. But sometimes I wonder why I even bother too. Why am I bothering editing a novel that nobody will read - fantasy market is crap here, economy is crap, no one will buy it. Why am I bothering writing fanfiction, when I get 30+ comments for a 70K story and I have to consider that as the pinnacle of number of reviews.
I think it's important to realize that we are small fish in a very large ocean. Not that we're not important, but there's such a large offering of books/posts/journals that nobody knows where to look at anymore. Me, I used to visit a lot of pages a day just to keep up, and I couldn't afford to look at it too extendedly because there was more to do, more to see, clickclickclick! We're growing older, mature, and we condense our interests and keep to the people we like and want to know what's going on with them. And yeah, that's pretty little compared to how many people are 'out there', on the Internet.
Just do what you like to do, dear. There's always someone interested in what you're doing, and there's always a core of people who keep tabs on you. *SUPERHUGS*
should read: "me due to different timezones"....
I R SMRT!!
Sometimes it sickens me how much people change. It's like you know someone and you think you know them well, then suddenly their personality's makes a 180° turn and they seem like another person. Unfortunately, there's just no stopping some people from doing stuff like that, no matter what it does to the people around them. All I can tell you is something a friend of mine told me years ago when a bunch of my "friends" started all randomly changing and gossiping and such about me: "If these people don't have your best interests at heart, then you don't need them around anymore." Life's too short and precious to deal with people like that.
I still say, if you have no luck with the fantasy market there and you don't want to go the self-publishing route, translate them to English. I'll help you clean up grammar and such (for free even! This is my special "for friends" deal. Usually I charge ^_~) and help you start marketing it to the fantasy agents and companies here. We will get your books sold, and you will be a success. I know this. You have so much talent that I can't imagine anything else. Baen Fantasy, for example, takes unsolicited manuscripts from unpublished authors, and I know of a few agents that take fantasy. I haven't looked too hard yet, though, so there are undoubtedly a lot more.
*hugs* I appreciate your warm thoughts, sweetie. It's good to know that, even in the worst of times, I can count on my real friends to stand by me -- and sometimes even help prop me back up. It means the world to me.
*HUGS* ♥