Apollymi ::||:: Dark Passion Play

Okay, subject line was totally random, but still! We have the Prima Donna, the Large and In Charge, and Death by Cute. It's like the building of a good fandom right there. All they need are evil doggies trying to take over the world to fight, and we could make an anime (or webcomic) out of it.

So, this weekend I'm hoping that we get to work on our Dragon*Con costumes. I showed Hikari the list of costumes I want to do over the next few years -- and I think she wanted to reach through the Instant Messenger and beat me. Especially on two of them: Alexiel and Illyria. Call me crazy, but they look fun! Illyria I could even do this year; Alexiel, my hair needs to grow a bit more first.

I went in to see the doc today. It didn't even take a lot of persuading, but I'm back on Wellbutrin XL for my depression. This is not a bad thing. I got the pills today, so I'll start taking them tomorrow. I'll have to call the doc every week for 2 weeks, then on the 3rd week I'll have to go in for a follow-up appointment. Always tons of fun.

I'm also really hoping to start pulling myself out of this funk by 01 June. I want to try to do NaNoCoMo (National Novel Continuing Month) a bit: finish the sekkrit project for June, do JulNoWriMo in July, try to finish Verdant in August, then either finish Verdant or start Ash in September, and continue or finish Hunter's Path for October... So that maybe I can be set to start Azure for NaNoWriMo.

And I guess I'm going to let that it be it for now. It's taken me an hour to type this entry anyway, so it's about time to bugger off to bed. One of these days I'm going to take my laptop and leave it up there so I can just scribble at will... except then I definitely won't get enough sleep.

But first... The Un-Photoshopped Image of the Night. Because I'm better taking the pictures than being in them. Behold Roo's arse. Behold the bottom half of my Blue Eyes and Kaiba wallscroll. Behold my messy desk. Behold the blurry me.

And now bed.

And this is a quick note to say a couple of things:

1) I am self-medicating my fatigue/exhaustion with the world's easiest solution for being tired: candy. 2 grape (my 3rd least favorite flavor - my favorite is strawberry, of course) Jolly Ranchers candies and about 9 (so far) of the longer Tootsie Rolls.

2) This doesn't mean I'm not also real medicating with Tums (again) and ibuprofen.

3) I make dorky Excel charts.

4) I'm still asleep.

I said I was going to try not to do any more posts where the subject line is directly dependent on the icon. Yeah, well, me do something silly like make sense? Yeah, right.

I went to bed around 9 last night. I read two chapters of Underworld and then went to sleep by 9:15. I had odd but vague dreams all night, till I woke up with my alarm clock at 5:40. I dozed till Doc finished in the shower and stuck her head in at 6:20. That's more sleep than I've gotten in quite a while.

Unfortunately it's over now.

If I could get a few more nights of sleep like that, I might feel a bit more back to normal. Unfortunately, this weekend Oyaji wants us up for a Saturday evening and Sunday morning visit, so I might get a bit of rest of Friday, but he apparently doesn't believe in letting his guests rest. He'll let one of the (now four) dogs in the bedroom at odd hours or something like that. And that is to say nothing of how lumpy and uncomfortable the bed is. So I won't get enough sleep Saturday night.

The coffee is nice this morning. The waffle is also quite nice. Breakfast can be good. Yes, yes.

Now hopefully I won't fall asleep at work.

LiveJournal has a way of really pissing its userbase off lately. (And by lately, I mean in the last two or three years.)

I predict a great influx of people joining up here and at the alternative sites: here, Journal Fen, Dead Journal, Blurty, Commie Journal, and the others. Amusingly, of that list, I'm on all but one of those.

All the same, it's all I can do today to keep my eyes open. I woke up at 4 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. I eventually opened the bedroom door to kittens, and Boo and I crashed on my bed for about 20 minutes before I just gave up, got dressed, came downstairs, fed the babies, and made my own coffee. I should be working on Verdant, because I've yet to get a page in the past three days due to extreme busy-ness, but when I'm this tired it would just be gibberish. Maybe gibberish is what I need to get back in the flow of things.

...If I don't fall facefirst into my coffee. Now that I'm up, I'm exhausted.

I look down at what I'm wearing for the day, and I realize that apparently I couldn't be arsed to give a damn about anything today. It's black cargo pants, Halloween skull socks (in orange, green, black, and white), and a shirt with a yellowish base, purple and maroon butteries, and purple sleeves. I'm so fashion-talented today.

And for the record, I seriously need a new job. Private sector admin assistants make $8+ an hour more than me. Hell, admin assistants in other parts of state government make more than me. Data entry clerks working directly for the state make more than me! I could pull up any number of listings on it... but only when I'm more awake.

So... yeah. I'm either gonna curl up with some Get Backers (till Farscape is here), some Dresden, or try to work on Verdant.